Ugh!

apparently I got it.  Amazing.  I'm getting too old.I feel nauseas,, my nerves and anxiety level are sky high.  This is where I can unload because there is no one I can talk to about certain stuff.  Added to car situation there was the TV thing the other night. and now diddling with this BS, and Keenie wanting the old car and my feelings about that,  just to try to have a way to unload.  My head feels as though the top is ready to fly off.  I would be able to speak to Corrine or Anthony but they are gone and I miss them so much. Now my daughter, nothing I say is right with her sometimes.  I try to appease her but if I've said the wrong thing according to her there is no fixing it, even when I've offered everything including what makes me uncomfortable and I still am wrong. So I will do what she seemed to expect in the first place which is attend the afternoon and evening performance of Niko's play, and attend the doctor visit with her. I thought when she offered afternoon performance that  would be good as then I knew I wouldn't have to drive home with any traffic, I didn't realize she expected me to go to the evening one too and anyway I still would have had to go to doctor with her at 4 which would have put me in traffic to and from the doctor, unless she drove. So I will not go to the gym in the morning because I might not make it up there in time for afternoon.  Go to afternoon and have to be with those other two as well, then doctor, then evening performance.  And Keenie asked if I wanted to go up with her to evening which would have been good but then Jodi mentioned I was going to doctor with her at 4.

Is this a new post?   Not going to put anything else just testing

Very confused,  booked Birthday party for Jan 3, Pete said Sat. at Jodi's they had to change to 11th.   Called to check because Barbara e-mailed 11th was a Sun.  Don't want a Sunday.  Is it possible Pete does not want a party?  Have to wait until I speak with him this evening.

Well not that anyone will ever read this but will catch up from last blog of about 7-8 years ago.  Retired almost 5 years ago right after Christmas vacation, happy 65 Birthday to me..  Had a few good months started  Bucket list with trip through Panama Canal with Barbara in March, fabulous.  Cancun in May with Corrine and Jim and Sandra came also Arlene and Benny were there.  Had a really nice time except while exercise walking one morning I tripped and fell and broke my teeth and really scratched up my face an shoulder and inside of my lip had a good sized hole.  Didn't go to Dr. or hospital,wound up ok.  Enjoyed trip.  Corrine had said she had something going on on her side but she seem ok on trip.

Sept Barbara and I took a cruise to Bay of Fundy,  another Bucket list trip.  It was good but couldn't see Bay of Fundy the way I wanted.  Visited Maine and lighthouses and Harvard.Then Corrine had surgery.  Really extensive Hysterectomy and colostomy.  She was in the hospital a few weeks.  Then Chemo,  then she had a slight stoke.  She never completely recovered and passed away about two years later it was only really bad the last week.  Midway though her illness Anthony was diagnosed with a throat cancer and after a while he went into a nursing home.  He lasted about 6 months after Corrine.  Meanwhile I was diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma and the numbers were such that I didn't needed to be treated at that time but during testing about the myeloma they found a mixoma in my heart. So I had open heart surgery. two months before Corrine passed away.  Her funeral was the day of hurricane Sandy.

Barbara came to stay with me a week or so after heart surgery as Jodi was just going back to work.  When I was healed enough from heart surgery I got rechecked for myeloma an had to start treatment.
It was chemo but pills and a shot in the belly every week. this went on about 3 or 4 months it didn't bother me too much.  Then I had a stem cell transplant in early May I went into the hospital the day after my brother was buried.The transplant was brutal.The transplant itself wasn't painful, I was in the hospital like 14 or 15 days and was really weak.

Barbara stayed with me again for over a week because I was so weak.  Then in July I had another stem cell transplant at NIH.  It was and stayed in their lodge.like the first only I didn't get all weak and only had to stay 5 days.  Jodi came with me and stayed in their lodge.

I've been pretty good since then all tests have been good since then and it has been 4 1/2 yrs since it all started and a little over a year since the last transplant.

Boy this whole format is new looking I'm not even sure this will post on my blog so I'm not writing any more .

This is hysterical, after 5 years it took a new computer and Apple classes to find this web page and links.  Too too much has happened in five years.  Just testing right now, if it works out I may be back.

Well, well, well

So, somehow I finally am back on my blog. I hope it links to my web page. I have been trying for quite some time to try to get back on but it keeps asking to start a google account. I tried. Then it says you can sign in using old log in I guess I couldn't remember it correctly so I finally got here using old log in and new password. Hooray!!!!!! I really haven't felt that hot yesterday and today so even though I'm glad to have my blog back, I'd rather go read and sit in front of the boob tube.

BYE!!!!

Christmas Eve

So here I am on Christmas Eve at the computer with my computer whiz brother-in-law. My niece is belly aching about joining the family.